How tired is tired?

Have you ever wondered how tired, tired really is?

I constantly feel in a state of tired.  I know, I always blame it on having to get up every night to tend to Haydens needs knowing full well that he will, for the rest of his life, need me to tend to his needs.  Then I should add to this list the rushing around like full time taxi service in the after school hours and keeping house while DH is away for 13 consecutive days, tuck in a few days of work and there you have it....everything that makes me tired.

I know that I am not the only one who suffers the effects of children and life all tossed into one bowl but just sometimes I wish that I could wave a magic wand and give myself some sleep moment in storage so I could use them when I really could do with a few extra house of sleep and more energy to cope with the rest of my day.

So for me sleep can happen as and when I need it.  I can snooze in the car waiting for my daughter bus to arrive in in the afternoons, on the chair as I sit down for a few minutes to unwind, etc etc.  To make this happen I need a couple of conditions;

1.  The space is the right temperature for me to sleep/ snooze.
2.  Eat and drink foods that support sleep. 

The sleep/ snooze needs to be short and snappy. Just enough to take the edge off the need to sleep and revitalise my energy somehow. Not too much so I don't really want to wake up.

Then because I get broken sleep I have a couple of things I do

1.  I don't turn the lights on when I am up in the middle of the night.  In fact I could almost do the whole tend to Hayden thing at 0130 hrs.
2.  I have plan B for any eventuation already sorted so I don't have to think too hard and can make decisions easily without waking myself up too much.  If I have to walk myself up more then I am probably getting ready to take a trip into the hospital with Hayden.
3.  Have the house and bed at the right temperature so I can go straight back to sleep.



I am no way an expert on these things but for me who is on the go these few things really help.

Monday Menu 13 August

My menu is done and posting late as usual.

Monday   freezer meal.

Tuesday  chicken with baked potato and green vege

Wednesday  meatballs and spaghetti

Thursday  sweet n sour stirfry

Friday  chicken soup with bread.

Saturday  skinny mexican meatloaf with salad

Sunday  leftovers

I am linking this post to I'm an Organising Junkie

Fridays Fabulous 5 # 16

So another week has passed by very quickly and here I am finally posting this post which I started on Friday done.

Here are my finds for this week.  I love browsing the web to see what interesting things I can find to share.

1.   This very powerful newspaper article was writting recently in New Zealand.  I hope it speaks to       you like it speaks to me.

     
      I tried to find the original link but sadly was unable to do so.  So please link me up if you know 
      what it is.

2.  Have you ever had one of those parenting questions you would just like on  someone viewpoint 
     then just maybe Diane Levys contribution to the Kiwi Families web site.

3.  Then what about doing a canvas picture for yourself from Bits of Everything blog

4.  Not forgetting a little baking Pumpkin Oatmeal Cookies from My Baking Addition

5.  Finally from Big Pictures a Big Idea Festival to particitate in for free.  Looks like it will be a 
     whole lot of fun.

Well thats it for this week.  Please feel free to link me up if you have something you think others might like to know about.

Lonely Sometimes

Just sometime I feel really lonely.  I guess there are many things that contribute to that feeling and at the same time there is nothing that really stands out.  Sometimes it can be all about Hayden.  With him being disabled and not fitting any support group.  Someone who really understands the difficulty of having one really challenging....behaviourally, medically and intellectually .....person in the house.  Perhaps it is just that DH has been overseas with work for 13 days (just like now).  Or maybe it might just be no matter how hard I have tried since we returned to New Zealand from living overseas (6 years ago) it has been difficult developing new circles of people in Auckland ....it is so impersonal here.

Sometime I just sit here alone in the evenings wondering what more I can do to fix the situation but I must be stale and see to be stuck.

Any way no need to sit here feeling sorry for myself.  A little scrapbooking therapy and I am ready to get on with it.

(You can find the links for this page here at Nuts4digi)

Wordless Wednesday 8 August

Here are my photos for this week

I am linking this post to My Little Drummer Boys.

Monday Menu 6 August (posted on the 7 August)

Here is this weeks menu.

Monday  Devilled Sausages on rice.

Tuesday  Cold corned beef with baked potato and salad

Wednesday  meatloaf (got sausage meat in the freezer which needs using) with green salad.

Thursday  meatballs on spaghetti

Friday  frittata and salad

Saturday  chicken curry 

Sunday  Leftovers


I am linking this page to I'm an Organising Junkie

July in Numbers

Here is my month in numbers.

July was one really busy month.  You would have thought with a two week school holiday break I would not feel like I have just run a marathon.  Then when I sat down to looks at my notes for this post I was left thinking that I must have been exaggerating about my month.  Who knows but this is what it looked like.

6 weeks after our little airport car (DH works at the airport) we finally get it back and it is looking like nothing had happened to it thank goodness.

14 days of school holidays during the winter school holiday.  It was cold but fine with those chrystal clear winter days.  -1 being the lowest morning temperature.  The frost in the cows water trough was so frosty it was still icy at 10 in the morning.

2 children spend on wet day during the holidays telling me that they are baking and they know what they are making.  So I sit back and let the excited duo go to it.  At the end of the mornings baking, two different batches of cookies later my kitchen was completely cover in dishes of the dirty variety.

1 is the number of days Hayden had to spend in hospital with a last ditch effort to prevent the need for surgery.  An all day stay in Day Stay at Starship Hospital hooked up to a fluid to thin blood just incase the blockage was a stubborn blood clot.   Luckily we had the help of the Clown Doctors to entertain us as well as the Play Therapists

This school term is seeing a committment to 4 consequitive days of hockey for McKenzie each week.  I am not sure who it is harder on, her or me.  This effort is partly her club team and partly for her Auckland representive team.  Luckily it her that loves her hockey.  Pity her little 11 year old mouth is not coping so well.

McKenzie player her 1st representative game of hockey this year.  Not a pretty photo but all I have at the moment.  I have to say after moving associations it sure looks strange with her dressed in blue and white and not the Counties Manukau colours of red, black and white.

1 is the number of new all terrain buggies the Health system of New Zealand has generously provied us with so that I can continue to take Hayden out when I exercise and when the saturday sport is rudely early and his medication is not finished.  He looks very little in it but I know he will never out grow it as he is unlike to grow any taller than 140cm.

143 photos is what I took in July.  I am trying to capture a reflection of daily life.

and finally a little bit of everyday life

2 is the number of alarm clocks I have in my bedroom far across the other side so they are not turned off in my sleep.  One is set for 0130hrs and the other for 0530hrs. 

I am linking this post to Notes on Paper so pop on over to have a look at what othes numbers are like.

 

Wordless Wednesday 1 August

Spring is here.  This lamb is about 1 day old.  He is in our neighbours paddock.

I am linking this post to My Little Drummer Boys.

Monday Menu 30 July

Here is my menu for this week.

Monday  spaghetti bolignaise

Tuesday  freezer meal bacon and egg pie and salad

Wednesday  chicken stir fry (creamy coconut sauce flavour)

Thursday  easy stir fry rice

Friday  sweet and sour chicken and noodles

Saturday  lunch box chicken curry pasta

Sunday   leftovers.

I am linking this post to I'm an Organising Junkie

Don't for get to Dream, It might just come true.

My daughter McKenzie plays hockey.  I have written about this before many times.  This year we decided, as she is very passionate about this sport, to move her club registration out of where she had been since she was five, to a new club falling under a new provincial structure.  This decision too my DH and I much thought and discussion.  What really helped seal the decision came down to these few things

• she is passionate about the sport and we needed to make sure she had all the opportunties avaliable to her.
• under the club and provincial structure she was in she was going to run out of girls/ youth to play in a team with thus leaving her to play in adults team once she was in Year 9 (13 years old).
• we were looking long term for a health club environment to be involved in so she could form friends outside of school in a positive sporting environment.

So this year was a year of new for both her school and sport. 

She has been playing representative hockey for a few years and this year with the move and many more girls participting she might not have been seen as good enough by the decision makers this year to play representative hockey.

So after 3 trial days, 95 girls attending, and total exhaustion on her part, she was picked in the team putting her in the top 16 girls in our new province.  I have to say right here and now I was stunned, and excited, to see her picked.  I know that my daughter is good and well skilled.  She trains hard, listens carefully and is really brave out there on the turf.  The reality this year was that she was relatively unknown this year which just might have made a difference.  I had been trying to tell her she needed to dream that she was good enough to trial and be picked but also if she was not picked it was only those three men decision and next year was another year.  A very fine line of support to give.

Anyway to cut a long story short.  Her team played their first game in the weekend.  My very excited but somewhat nervous daughter put on her new strip and off she went.

Now I just have to remember to actually take my camera out when I am watching her play so that I can get some action shots.

So I guess that the moral of my little post is to make sure you dream.  You just never know, it just might come true.