I wonder........

I wonder why it is that some people...(yes I am talking about myself) are emotional eaters.   I know that stress rules my life in may ways.  Being the primary carer for a highly dependent, significantly impaired both behaviorally and cognitively child is not easy.  In fact it is fair to say that this is the primary source of my stress.  The stress not only impacts on me, but the relationships in my family and the happiness that many families experience due to the freer lives they have.

I know that my weight represents how I am looking after myself and how I feel about myself.  It possibly could be called carers fatigue.

So when my weight (I guessed what it was because I could not fit the largest clothes in my cupboard) hit an all time high, and after some months of denial, I did something very proactive about it.  I went back to Weight watches and stood on the scales.  Oh my gosh.

Anyway that does bring me back to me wonder why it is some people are stress eaters.  Maybe it is all tied back to the whole comfort eating thing.  Or perhaps it is just plain not eating a balanced diet.  Then of course there is the whole thing about exercise.....or lack of it as in my case.  For me it is sure all of the above.

I hope know  I have learned to deal with my stress eating.....cope with my sweet tooth and have promised myself to exercise and am walking for an hour 5 times a week and doing pilates at home through a programme I found on line.....it is free too.  There are now simply no excises not to exercise even if I have to push my disabled son in his buggy which makes it much harder.

I am at the stage of trying to keep my self exactly where I am.  I am happy with how fit I am, how I feel about myself and that I can participate in life without being constantly tired.  In the next month I plan on keeping life at this point of equilibrium even as the school year kicks in and the out of school activities all start up.

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